rear up

Jalen has reached his 6-month mark. First, I will state the obvious--I'm elated that Jalen is a big and healthy stud. But, not so obviously--I'm more amazed that Eumi and I have survived without killing each other. No one ever warned us how difficult it would be on our relationship. On top of that, learning to understand and deal with opinion differences on raising a child is stressful. And now that Jalen is priority, our relationship has taken a back seat. We're here trying to juggle taking care of a baby, our work schedule, keeping our household in order, friends and family on both sides. Where would we find time to groom our loving partnership? I guess you don't. I suppose if you have a strong enough foundation, then you could put it in hibernation-on-demand. But that's probably unrealistic because life has changed and there's no reverse. It is quite sad for me, thinking about our intimate little life before. Unfortunately, amorous sighs have been replaced with exhaustive snoring and lustful stares with take-care-of-the-baby looks. Ironically (and not surprisingly), though, our love is stronger than before. For me, maybe it's because I take great comfort in knowing that Jalen will grow up with the greatest mother he will ever know, or that it's only with my soul mate that we could have created such a great kid, or that sooner than later, hopefully, things will get down and dirty again.