I remember when you were just a little strobe light on a computer screen. I was informed that this was your beating heart. I remember it to be the loudest blinking light that I have ever seen. You were a 9-week embryo then and though I could not touch, see or smell you, you were more real than anything I've encountered in my life. 32 weeks later you came into this world and no one could have altered my reality like you have. For you, I've had to fight through a lot of travail, but it's been worth every stinking minute and more. I've got Jalen tattooed on my heart and Father's Day will bring a different sentiment from now on. I honestly never knew fatherhood could feel like this. Thank you.
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amy is laying next to me. crying her eyes out from too much happiness. your love for your son makes up for all the hurt caused by boys who could never step up to the plate. your son is lucky to have such an amazing creature for a father. you make us happy. and your family is the most beautiful.
hey cuz, we're very lucky to have such loving parents, aren't we?
hi, i am a friend of cindy's, who sent me a link to your blog when jalen was born. our son jasper was born around the same time, january 30th. i loved those early posts about jalen - he is so adorable and you are a wonderful writer.
but then i got caught up in jasperland and forgot about jalen until today. now we're getting more sleep and i remembered your blog and decided to check in and see how you're all doing.
to my surprise and delight i couldn't help but read every single post from where i left off. it's like reliving jasper's last few months - so many of the same sweet moments, heart-rending decisions and beautiful feelings!
this particular post brought tears to my eyes (and i'm not normally so sentimental - jasper has brought this out in me). so i had to write and let you know how wonderful and enjoyable is it to see your lovely family grow. thank you for this blog - it is an inspiration.
I've been truly and pleasantly surprised by some of the response to 'dear jalen'. I originally had no intention of writing a Father's Day posting. But this entry was inspired by the photo from that day. Jalen is sitting up high on my shoulder and looking ahead into the distance, while I'm looking up and supporting him. It just made me realize the fact that I live through him now and how my life changed ever since he became an embryo. It's something that came out spontaneously, from the heart and I've somehow managed to connect with a lot of people on this one in particular. As Borat would say, "Hi Five!"
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